BARBARA MICHELLE EDELMAN

 

 

My whole life I was consumed by the idea of the malleable form.

At the end of my childhood this pursuit of perfectibility resulted in less and less form:

I became anorexic.

 

My body recovered but I was exhausted by the compulsive thoughts, actions and patterns I imposed on myself so I decided to further examine the relationship between the two basic components of my being:

my body and my mind.

 

I became involved in a life-changing transformation process, driven by self-observation, self-reflection and self-analysis.

Slowly I moved further away from the importance I attached to the physical form and I let go of control.

 

Eventually this long process resulted in one image.

 

Layer upon layer my menstrual blood shaped the contours of a womb: the beginning of my life, my femininity, my fertility, my identity.

For years I did not menstruate and only when my menstruation returned did I realize what I had done to myself.

At the same time I regained confidence in my body.

 

This image embodies my being in another level of awareness where I can clearly see that the indefinable form I constantly seek is only caused by my obsessive thoughts.

 

I will destructure my self-destructive philosophy by digesting it.

 

Literally.

 

I ate the images I made during this process.

All images, with the exception of the image of the womb, the embodiment of my being.

As a ritual, captured through video recording.

 

 

THE NEW CURRENT - ROTTERDAM 

THE NEW CURRENT - ROTTERDAM 

GRADUATION PRESENTATION - LOODS 6 - AMSTERDAM

GRADUATION PRESENTATION - LOODS 6 - AMSTERDAM

SCREENSHOTS VIDEO

SCREENSHOTS VIDEO

FLRT PROJECT SPACE | MUSEUMNIGHT010 | ROTTERDAM

FLRT PROJECT SPACE | MUSEUMNIGHT010 | ROTTERDAM

GRADUATION PRESENTATION - LOODS 6 - AMSTERDAM

GRADUATION PRESENTATION - LOODS 6 - AMSTERDAM

FLRT PROJECT SPACE | MUSEUMNIGHT010 | ROTTERDAM

FLRT PROJECT SPACE | MUSEUMNIGHT010 | ROTTERDAM

GRADUATION PRESENTATION - LOODS 6 - AMSTERDAM

GRADUATION PRESENTATION - LOODS 6 - AMSTERDAM

FLRT PROJECT SPACE | MUSEUMNIGHT010 | ROTTERDAM

FLRT PROJECT SPACE | MUSEUMNIGHT010 | ROTTERDAM

GENERATION 17' BY MOAM - VONDEL CS - AMSTERDAM

GENERATION 17' BY MOAM - VONDEL CS - AMSTERDAM

FLRT PROJECT SPACE | MUSEUMNIGHT010 | ROTTERDAM

FLRT PROJECT SPACE | MUSEUMNIGHT010 | ROTTERDAM